Things I'm thinking about:

- Dying the bottom of my hair dark pink, or some kind of blue or purple. But I"m wondering if that would interfere with getting a job.

-Trying to get into reading again. Bought a book, along with a Vincent Van Gogh book, called Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn.

- I still want to try to get a job next term and take next semester off and start up next fall.

- I'm trying to drink more green tea.

- Matcha Green Tea is so good.

- I want to get an infinity tattoo on my wrist, but I'm wondering if this would also interfere with getting a job.

- I'm trying to love myself more, I've got a love/hate relationship with myself, sometimes it's hard.

- I miss seeing my friends.

- I miss having television.

- Sometimes I wish the latter half of last year didn't happen.
- I'd love to live in a Starbucks/Video Difference store.
- I wonder if anyone will ever discover if the universe ends.

air

I feel like I'm suffocating.
I seriously just like want to claw my fucking skin off. Getting a minimum wage job probably won't cover my living expenses, and I hate that, because I don't know what I'm doing with my life, and I don't really want to move back home. But getting a job at home is even less likely. I just want to get my grades up and be able to buy things. But I don't think I could have a job and go to classes.Why is this so hard. I'm tired of feeling stressed out. I'm tired of thinking too much.

morning

Woke up early today. Drinking Roobios Chai Tea. Wish I knew where I could get some more. It's so good.
Haven't really been able to sleep much. I feel like I might have insomnia or something. I'm stressed about a lot of things. I feel like I'm always stressed out. I'm such a stressed out yet lazy/ambitious person. I wish I had the same life view I had in high school/early university. I wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life.


edit: Feeling like trying to eat healthier today. It's an on/off thing. So made a chicken cesar salad  (mozzarella cheese) with potatoes. It's so good.